pain

my heart so pain~
i saw ur photo and i saw you hold other girl's hand
my heart don't know why so pain
you already not belong to me
but i still care
for what?
is useless, meaningless already
but how?
i still like stupid
waiting you
i really don't know that answer
i really not confidence at all
i know i hurted you
i know~
my heart also very pain
but i can't do anything else
i really wanna surrender
i told you my feeling and my thought before
but you still nothing
what can i do?
i not going to give up
but now
all situation is not benefit to me
you still can laugh
you still can thought every thing is nothing

may be my fate like telling me to give up everything
should i?
would i?
could i?
i really don't know
my heart everyday beating so down
pain~
just now i cut my hand again
the third scar

may be you will read this what i wrote above
will you care me??
i really wanna to know...
can?
0.o1% hope the answer is i want to heard~
99.99% hopeless~